I don't know since when, the fragile feeling came back, many times more fragile than it used to be.

I don't know since when, the fragile feeling came back, many times more fragile than it used to be.

The most depressed, painful time, I didn't even cry. Experiencing pain in silence, a few knives. Now I see how strong, brave, and admirable I was at that time. Now I am fragile, just because of a few idle words that hurt to the end. Perhaps not only because I am too weak, but those words come from the person I trust completely, the person I believe is the only one who loves me unconditionally and will always bring me happiness. The only place of solace is slowly falling apart. You should trust your own thoughts, not expect too much and then be disappointed.

Is it possible that besides myself, there is no one to listen to me without giving any evaluation or judgment? Do I really have to live with loneliness? But if I don't do that, I might dissolve and merge with the earth soon. Why can't I love people, I really want to, but won't let me open my heart.

Weak, the first thing I do when I encounter things is to blame myself. It's always your fault, if you were strong, you wouldn't have bothered yourself or upset others. It's all your fault, you arrogant idiot, why don't you be active to make the world comfortable. Or... no, that's enough.

Hello everyone, the story is that there is a male friend who used to work at facility 2, but a few months ago, he was transferred to the place where he worked. At first, I didn't like this friend very much because he was close to my blood sister 🙂 , very nice =)))). I see that you are also a bit effeminate sometimes. About a week ago, my friend and I started talking to each other and now we are all happy colleagues. I don't like to be in love with the same place, but now I feel like this friend 🥲. And I also know that this guy is 2 years younger than me.

 It's just good that I like it so much, that's what God meant =))))). It's been a long time since I seriously liked a person, I started to have low self-esteem, started thinking about the people around me, thinking about many things. I started asking this friend with my blood sister, and I know that you already have a lover but your lover is a man, everyone 🥲. The love that hasn't even begun has ended, what a spine

After I found out that he talked bad about me behind my back and knew four or five people at the same time in messenger and Zalo, I kind of wanted to cut all ties with him. At that time, I was like half-believed Not because friend A cheated on me, because my best friends often go online with friend A, so I found out about it, I was in a panic situation at that time. same time, but at night I went to ask him again and he said "No way! They all make up stories" or "There's no such thing" at that time, when I heard him say that, I felt at ease. 

I can't help but calm down a bit and the next morning like every other day, my friend N's name is N. Going to the net with friend A and some other friends. While on the net, friend A always says things like "N you are my wife" or "My wife, my wife..." other things- I heard my friend say that, I feel like friend A is a jerk and there are also some actions that friend A treats friend N like a pervert. After a while, I didn't talk or look at friend A's face during class, sometimes wherever I went, I avoided A's face like an evil one :))) Then finally came December 25th, Christmas Day. then friend A also texted me asking if I would agree to get back with her or not, but I thought for a while, then I wanted to start a <a vague relationship> [type above friendship below love] (at this point, the My mind is a bit stupid rr so I understand 😞 ) 

But at the same time, friend A got to know a classmate named L. As far as I know, friend L is your personality. things that make friend L talk bad about other students, stab him in the back...etc... and most of my classmates won't play with her and neither do I! But friend L once told her classmates that she is a lesbian, I don't know if she is a real lesbian or if she is too lonely to smell like boys in class, squirm, run around until she falls. sitting around like a lunatic. 

When I found out that friend A and friend L were lovers, I was also shocked like "Dm, what's wrong, call me back but tell someone else to be my lover :)))"- while L corrected me at this time. to me, she's still a lesbian, when I texted him at night to ask him, he said, "Me and that L are just rela!-rela held hands and kissed in the middle of the class, To tell the kid in the next class to stop stalking me :v" *rela is a fake date* and once again I was stupid x2 also believed it to be true. The first few days he and L held hands publicly during PE class and even kissed during class time, cuddling during recess, then I had the thought "Wow! why did A say that?" told me that it was just a rela but it was so hot" when I saw those scenes between friend A and friend L, 

I was very upset and annoyed, so I asked three questions to make it right, but A still insisted insisted that "it's all just pretending" and this time I didn't believe her words anymore. After a while until now, two or three days ago, A asked to come back to me again, this time I was wiser than before and told him to give me a few days to think. At night, I was lying in bed while surfing Facebook and thinking, a message from my best friend's mes was a picture with the content from friend A and my other friend, "I like you" at that time in my heart. I broke down again and lost all faith in my son in life, when I reshaped what the message was for a while, I blocked all Facebook, zalo messages related to my old crush and still now. facing him. 

After so many times in and out like that, I advise the person who is liked by friend A. "No matter what happens, never like that guy! 🙂"

#linhtinh

PS: The story is over and what do you think about friend A in the above story?